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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

of rainy days and morning blues.....

well,this is again a cribbing kind of post..i guess,i should make this my speciality...:(
as described in my last post..my sloth like existence has drowned to the depths of the oceans and am struck with a work pace which has screwed my system up..half of the time i am light headed and the other half i have hammering headaches waiting to enter my system...to top it,my parents are out of town...i do not have my mom to crib my heart out to..so i guess,right now ...my blog is my makeshift momma...blogamma.....
it was one of those days..i was supposed to get up at 4 to study some stuff which were a blast from my past..and considering my rocking nightlife..i realised i haven't slept yet..when the clock struck 3.30 a.m. considering it an utter waste to sleep for half an hour..i started my day without a break..at 3.30..finished my lessons...dressed up for college and left my place by 6.all through this..i was too lazy to prepare tea...conclusion..my head started pounding..my eyelids started drooping,i could not open my eyes fully nor could i turn my head.my alertmeter was showing zero reading..going towards negative...walking through the roads i remember a voice in my head warning me of the high probability of falling into a ditch..and another voice pathetically thinking that it would be a relief to fall anyplace and not get up..but just go off to slumber land....i managed to board the train,took my class...somehow on that day..i had to teach a vague topic...and my students had too many doubts..my 2 hr lecture tenure was extended..all through this ..some weak voice in my mind was begging for oblivion from daily life...finishing my day's quota of lectures,practicals and paper work...i made my way back home in the train..somehow this time..though drained totally of every possible strength..sleep was alluding me..i was in this miserable state of intense discomfort ..as if experiencing an out of body feeling.
that is when ..a pair of huge,innocent and sparkling eyes found me to be its source of curiosity..
i looked back at them....a tiny fist wavered in front of my blurry vision...somehow i felt someone reach out to me...i took the baby's hand...and offered him my finger..he firmly clamped it in his tiny fist..i felt sleep overcome me..i fell asleep....the next thing i remember is..waking with a start as the train entered my station and seeing the baby sleeping on his mom's shoulder with my finger still clamped in his fist.i gently entangled my hand..and pressed a kiss on my little saviour's forehead and got down from the train.

i love the rains..i have walked many walks with my friends as it pours cats and dogs..and enjoy the amalgamation of city sights sprinkled with natural beauty due to the rains....small waterfalls,puddles,the extra green sheen to trees,the super clean look to the highways...
i enjoy them all..
but as i told you,i have become one disgruntled little girl nowadays....
today as i was working out in the gym....i could not enjoy my workout..my muscles were sore..i could not summon my reserve of strength..my workout left me feeling low..which never has happened before...and as i made way out of my gym..the heavens opened..and as per Murphy's law..here i was without rain gear...
sweating and wet..i just got so utterly drenched...and to top it..some vehicle decided to gift my track pants a painting made from puddle water..brown and gooey..it looks like modern art on my tracks....
cursing every second person.thing,abstract i could think of..i made my way back home...
the rainy world around me..through the spirals of my curls and spectacles is a weird sight....
as i was waiting to cross the road..i saw a female driving her scooter. she was also all wet like me....
our eyes met...and in a split second she smiled...a smile which is given between people stuck in the same situation,utterly frustrated but who also cannot help but laugh at the comic splash to the whole affair....
i smiled back...and i saw some dark monsters shifting and flying out from my ears and mouth...the monsters of pettiness and cribbing...
i crossed the road,felt happy,made my way back home..started my computer..and here i am.....
i like Paulo Coelho..and somehow do certainly believe, in signs...signs..given by nature or God..or any form of Energy you believe in...signs..which help us out in life..even if we feel utterly alone and desolate.....
signing out.....as..
ice-happi-ness.

21 comments:

Shanu said...

Not sure if i am the frst one coz of the comment moderation..but in case i am then..Yay..me frst!!

If not..better luck next time Shanu!!

Loved ur rant...everythin frm the puddle to the sleep deprived state to the innocent baby reminded me of ..well me (yeah, im v innocent :P) Naah..seriously..i cant count the number of times i have walked arnd like a zombie tryin to keep my eyes open..or the number of times i have been splashed(esp when i wear my white churidar)..or the number of times when i cant sleep till 4 althgt i kno that i have to wake up at 5..ohh god i cld go on...but i shld stop bfr this looks like a rant comment!!

DPhatsez said...

there's ice-random-ness, happi-ness...
Oh how's 'high-ness' going to turn out? :D

Anjanaaaa..you and another lady??Aankhon ka ishaara? ITHENDHHAA? :D

(psst..can I get her number?)

iceprincess said...

yo shanu!!!!!
ur d first......
cheers!!!
i love ur blog as well as whatever u comment..
i dont mind d rants too..
i feel u shld rant abt this topic in ur blog..whatsay?
thanks man!!!

iceprincess said...

@DPhat
:)
am straight man!!atleast till now...
though i believe in options....i still keep to d opposite gender...
wait for the "highness"...
maybe ..u will hear abt tabletop dancing and all...
heehee
as 4 d number ..that woman was a stranger....

Shanu said...

Yay yay yay ***celebrations for the frst comment****

U got it gal...a rant comment on its way v soon :)

@ Dphat

Tats the prob with guys...post bhi thik se nahi padha aur chala aaya ladki ka number mangne :P

blunt edges said...

m sure i aint d 1st one 2 comment...n if u r wonderin how i came 2 dis conclusion...well i can see comments before me!!! ;)

just a qsn...do u still like rains??? :D

n u worked out eventhough u din hv any sleep d prev nite??? whoaaaaa...u r DAT dedicated???

like ur randomness...its kinda catchy :)

iceprincess said...

@shanu.
cheers!!!!
i know..guys!!!(rolls eyes)
(thats 4 u..DPhat)

iceprincess said...

@BE
yay..man!!!i still love d rains....
heehe..as 4 workouts..dont get me started..i love it completely..maybe i will dedicate a post on it....
whatsay?
thanks..man!!!
i like the first few ppl who regularly comment on my articles...
ur so one of them....
:)

blunt edges said...

did i just inspire u 2 write a post on workouts???? omg...me? d laziest of all beings inspired a post on somethin dats so against my principles!!! aarghhhh
KEEP IT A SECRET...wil spoil my reputation ;)

ahhh...d pleasure of commentin...u can say anythin u want n get away wid it...i wudnt miss it 4 d world :D

iceprincess said...

@BE
YAY!!!
u just did...
dont worry ..it is a secret....
:)
keep commenting....

DPhatsez said...

@Shanu & Anjana:

Grrr! Pura Post thik se hi padha tha! Stranger ho ya friend, Lekin Ladki ka number maangna mera haq hain! \m/
Ungli thedi ho ya seedhi, ghee to nikaalna hi padega!

Jao doob maro tum dono!
:)

Amal Bose said...

wow.. i cant even think of wat u have gone thru.. no sleep at all? my eyes would never keep themselves open unless i get a full 6+ hr sleep..
its a tiring job isnt it..
take care :-)

Bullshee said...

Pulling an all nighter is always stressful...just once a year is my suggestion!!

You're a teacher???woah....

Liked the bit about smiling at the woman on the scooter...nice moment!

iceprincess said...

@DPHat
daa daa..podaa...
:)
mujhe swimming aata hain..boo..:P
girlpower!!!!yayayayaaaaa!!!!
shanu...join me...

Shanu said...

@ Dphat

Take no pangas wit the Teddy gal

@ Anjana

Here i come...***drum rolls***

iceprincess said...

@AB
thanks man...
it is tiring...4 d simple reason that i am done with it man!!!or thgt so...
i am awaiting my masters results..and thgt my days of studying are over..4 a long time..
but..surprise!!!
i seem to be stuck with it...
thanks..nonetheless...

iceprincess said...

@Bulshee
heehee...am i a teacher?
technically..i am in the "no man's land" between being a student and a teacher....
am awaiting my postgrad results..but also teaching to be postgrad and undergrad students...

yea...atleast i find someone..who dint find that...corny...i mean..smiling at d girl on d scooter...
:)
thanks 4 dropping by....and also becoming my follower..yay!!!

gkam said...

Hey, nice post
I love rains
I love train traveling
but, they don't go quite well together; u'd know of course!

i wish i had a greengandhi (500 buck note) every time i felt all drained out on energy, I'd be richer than Bill Gates!

Loved the post, and like the way u write... Cheers! and Happy Monsoon


And... m following ya :)

iceprincess said...

@gkam.
yay!!!
i love d rains and train travel too....
:)
thank u......
for both..following me as well as liking my writing...

Post Script said...

Whoa ! The only thing that can even remotely warrant an all-nighter on my part is impending failure at an exam. Even then I get my 6 hours of shut eye. Come to think of it I get much more than 6 hours. Kudos to you my friend.

The empathy smile...lovely. Life's full of these insignificant moments of purity, I say. You just need to have the eyes to see them.

Good stuff.

iceprincess said...

@PS
thank u....
i agree...life is full of these moments and they make it so completely special......
:)
thank u..u will c me around....