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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

ramblings of an ex-sloth.

aaawwww zzzzz beep beep censored
i know,i know..good girls supposedly do not swear....especially ones like me who are parading around performing a charade of being a teacher....what did i hear..who the hell told you you are good..
uumm uhh...i conveniently turn deaf to that statement...
moving on...that is my state of mind right now....people,do you know...i realised something...during the past few days that i have been teaching....i have realised that....studying for your exams..for yourself is far more easier....because when we study..for the sole sake of marks...sometimes we have the choice of leaving stuff that go bouncer..or if you have the capacity of rote learning..by heart it and puke it out onto the answer sheets....
but as a teacher,you do not have that liberty..you have to be so clear about everything cause you have a massive responsibility..a responsibility which has its basis on the trust and expectation of your students from you.....
sheesh..i feel old...i was a student myself a month back..here i am a professor to students 2 to 3 years younger to me....
i also feel that somehow someone dished out a foul deal to me.....you ask me why?
well..when i was a student i used to study a few hours before exams...
now as a teacher i study everyday!!!!
i get up at 4 daily to revise....and i come home, hit the bunk,work out,and study again.......
i so have wanted to blog about so many stuff....but i have no energy and no time.....
i so crave my lazy,sloth like existence where i do not have to worry about whether the kids will take a jeans clad lady(who feels like a college kid herself) seriously....if they have a stereotype for a teacher and i do not fit in...

well,enough of cribbing i guess,so..i will let you know the best thing about my job....it is that spark,that dawn of realisation that you see in your student's eye when he/she just realised or understood what you explained,when a phenomenon which did not make sense to you just made sense.....
and trust me...no dope or booze could give you as high a high as the fact that you could actually have moments of extreme satisfaction in your job...

well...i guess,i will stop now..i need to go study some stuff...prokaryotic and eukaryotic genome structure...(looks around,scratches head)
why don't i remember something like that...uhh ohhh..wasnt that something i left as choice..during my final year in degree?

damn..i have to study it now!!!after all these years?!!!?..life sure has a way of getting back to you...see what i mean.....

well,Sam..you had asked me about my first day of teaching...well,to you and all our friends....
there are moments when i teach,when i look at the students...when their faces blur and they fade away...what i see is that their faces are replaced by familiar faces...faces of people who used to sit on those same benches with me..and shared some of the best times of my life......in this job....i face my past everday.....and it is bittersweet,i miss you guys.....


additional note which has no relevance to this topic:
i just found out Arshat is going for his MBA in 4 days..out of Mumbai..,well i knew he would be going..but so soon?..naaa..i wasnt expecting that...
i use this chance to wish him luck in his venture..as well as in his life.....
well,it was his idea that i start writing..and here i am...
thank you,mate..and keep in touch....you actually rock!!!!
here is to a great life ahead...
CHEERS!!!!!

22 comments:

blunt edges said...

"no dope or booze could give you as high a high as the fact that you could actually have moments of extreme satisfaction in your job"
hmmm...i'll still take d whisky :D
oooh...a jeans-clad prof...now why din our coll hv any of those ***heavy sigh*** life sure is unfair!!!

Quest said...

Professor?? Wrong terminology used here :P

Studying everyday- must be the penance for neglecting while u were in colg :D

I miss those familiar faces who shared the bench with me classes, who played together with me the numerous pranks while in college :(

The temple pic ".....childhood memories..."-Ananthapuram temple??? Visited it or a resident for North Kerala? :)

kk said...

haha... dont u wish u were me? the eternal sloth.. the specimen future wannabe sloths studied? :D .. but, going by who u r, n ur daily regimen, u oughta be like the next ganesh iyer.. remember? how we used to wait for one of those moments he just deviated from the topic on hand, and went on about some farm in the south or something of the sort.. u can do that.. u hav so many examples to not follow hehe.. anyway, njoy anje... il come arnd sometime to watch the sloth running at a pace unknown to the sloth community :D

iceprincess said...

@BE.
heehee..there r times even i am tempted to d same.....that sis take d whiskey...
:)

iceprincess said...

@quest.
hello....
yea...life is a vicious cycle..making me study stuff i gave up some time back....
:(
i know..teaching in d same college i studied in..makes it worse for me...
i just loved d pic..am a mallu..but havent been to that particular temple..but have spent some amazing childhood time..in temple courtyards..racing abt with no care in d world..
sighgh..only for those days again..

iceprincess said...

@kk.
thank u...sheesh..it is sad mann!!
that college reeks of memories!!!
:)

gayathri-vishwanathan said...

hi, i must say being a teacher is really a tough job...especially if you have students like me who sleep in the class, talk to my bajuwali and all that. all our teachers deserve a bravery award for putting up with people like us.

you are doing a good job! keep it up!

gkam said...

hello!
me firs time here, popped from DPhat's blog.

Eukaryotic and Prokaryotic genome structure, is what i kept for option too! :P

But yes, i wholeheartedly agree that the satisfaction, to see someone understand what one tries to explain, is immense.

Good luck on your future teaching endeavors!

:)

DPhatsez said...

"...no dope or booze could give you as high a high as the fact that you could actually have moments of extreme satisfaction in your job..."

DISAGREE! DISAGREE!

Hmmm Life Sciences padipikkunna teacher jeans ittu varuvee
Muhahahhha
I'm sure your male students are Attentive Ma'am! \m/

sam said...

u r only scratching ur head now madam...wait till u get to the problems in genetics... *evil grin*

n jeans clad LADY?????? i feel old n i mean need-help-to-walk-old!!!

i'm sure if u look hard u'll find a dozing kk, a dazed n lost nami, a walking in halfway thru class jayess, a shaking her head vigoursly while not following nething me :P,forever stifling a yawn anu in ur class. :D

enjoy it while it lasts anje, u r still part of a fun world....the rest of the world is really scary. :)

iceprincess said...

@GV
thanks for d vote of confidence..man!!!dont i need it...
but i do miss being a student myself....
:)
i will be arnd...in ur blog too..just give me some time.....

iceprincess said...

@gkam.
yea..it is irritating when what u leave as option is smethng u have to end up studying...
thanks for dropping by..
i will be there over ur blog..to ponder..
just give me some time...

iceprincess said...

@DPhat
that tho i know..miser and kallukudiyan..:P
isnt that what u think i think of u?
:P:P:P
yea...am sure..while i teach genetic engineering by male students are thinking of how god engineered d female form..sheesh..kuch bhi..my students are decent..

iceprincess said...

@SAM
OOHHHH AWWWW SAM!!!!i kinda fell in love with ur comment....
:)
i dread the problems in GEN..I SEE MY DIWALI VACN GOING DOWN D DRAIN SOLVING PROBLEMS...
:(

Amal Bose said...

i always made a fuzz abt what we had to study but never thought abt our lecturers.. now coming to think of it, their state is bitter i guess.. but again experienced ones would have everything stored in their mind itself, right?
i cant imagine how boring it would be to teach the stuff year after year..
so bio teacher ha? it was my least fav subject.. took it for +1 +2 just to get to know genetics, but later realised it to be the greatest mistake of my life..

so.. enjoy your work.. after all ur having the noblest profession..

take care :-)

iceprincess said...

@amal..
yea..this is my first month....
:)
i havent even got my post grad results..so u can think of my state...
neways..thank u.....
will drop by sometime...
:)

Shanu said...

Wow i never realised the kind of hardwrk that goes into being a teacher..dont u wori..breakin stereotypes is gr8...kids love rebels..i m sure they will love u too!!

PS: So J coz u can wear jeans to wrk and i cant :(

iceprincess said...

@shanu.
thanks a ton..4 d vote of confidence....
thank u .....:)

Parikshith Kumar said...

Interesting read

Student to teacher? Very nice, very nice. But I must say having you as a teacher would be quite intimidating for the students, because you'll surely know all the tricks of their trade inside out - the proxy attendances, the bunking fundas, the last benchers' activities, the different types of copy-chits in examinations... all these stuff will be as fresh as a daisy in your memory!!! Poor students... give them some extra marks and allow them smuggle a chit or two, will ya. :-P

iceprincess said...

@PARRY
:)
:)
:)
I WILL SURE CONSIDER THOSE..MAN!!!

Lata said...

anjana.. we love u.. ur the bestest teacher ever:))

iceprincess said...

@lata
yay!!!
ur d first person who is my student..to comment...
thank u soooo much..it means a lot to me..
and yea..i have a soft corner for u guys..
after all ur my jayu payu's sis.....
i will do my best 4 u...
:)