it all starts with one thought and you can never imagine the the totally unpredictable tour it can take your mind through....
i generally have a structured thought process..when i start a thinking process i usually know,why i started it,where it will lead me to,what i want out of it and so on...
though i worship my brain,let me tell you at times,it leads to extreme exhaustion.
for the simple reason,when you take a break,your mind is till buzzing with thoughts,work to be done,music to be heard,errands to be run,hurt to be ignored,love to be proclaimed,responsibilities to be fulfilled and life to be lived..along with it the usual bodily functions which is necessary to be physically alive.
and to top it all,all these constant reminders in your brain are talking in your own voice!!
i ,at times wonder, where to run to to escape my voice. :(
one way i love to relax is to read and listen to music...one pitfall there....when i read,i cannot fall asleep ,cause the story usually holds me spellbound..and when i read(as in studies)i fall asleep pronto..it doesn't serve the purpose :P
as for music..if the lyrics or the singer's voice holds my attention,i cannot relax ,i so go in with the mood that i am usually active by the time the music ends...
so,i do this thing at times,i just let my brain take me wherever it wants to without resistance.
my mom is applying mehendi on my hair.what if i get up with an orange head tomorrow?donot expect me to lie against the input your eyes give me.you will look ugly .(that's my brain,talking.)
there is a bumble bee hovering near my face,does it think i am a flower?seems it is blind.
who the hell came up with the etymology "bum"ble bee. funny!reminds me of past instances and of my friends,especially sam and kk.
what would it be like to fly like the bees and birds,free from a "responsible"life and just living a"basic"life?
i think i should watch the movie"into the wild"again.refresh the feeling of living basic.
is love a biological function?because the only love i process as genuine is the parent -child bond.
again,is any other form of love a rare species?as i have so far come across very few "true"love stories.
i like the way Joe Elliott sings,
"Every dream I dream is like some kind of rash 'n' reckless scene"
the way he pronounces words makes me feel good. the only other singer who does that is Bono.
when he sings, i feel fluid and boneless.it is more than the music,lyrics and voice..it is the heart and emotion behind it all,which is so evident when they sing.
as for dreams,what is the whole use if they are not rash,reckless and kingsize.
back to love,from whatever i have seen,heard,felt and experienced, i feel "love"has found itself in shackles. makes me wonder if it only exists in books,movies and music. like the ideal state theorem.
i love the last sentence in these theorems
"ideal state is a hypothesis;nothing like it exists"
is love the ideal mirage humans have come up with to go through the desert of our lives?
why is it that when you go through a heartbreak ,it is called a part of growing up?
why is it that my brother is the only person i share an unconditional bond with?even if the only mode of communication we use is verbal assaults and that too a few pitches higher than usual frequency?
see.i still feel love is a biological function(my brain again)
why do i feel so weighed down(no,apart from my weight issues) when i study?
idiot,you are putting pressure on me,be careful,i may just flow out from the posterior part of your digestive system.-my brain
i ,at times dream of a star filled sky ,and me and my German Shepperd,lying on the soft grass and staring at them
i also dream of relaxing by lying down on that shifting boundaries,where the waves lap the shore....where i feel the constancy of the earth as it changes with each wave of water.as i feel my body soaking up that phenomenon... just like life shifting ever...but still constant......
there is this lovely dialogue i have heard...
"sometimes in life,it is more important to feel strong than be strong."