back to me..sitting staring at everything..and trying to process something.....
i am in this reflective mood...though it is a personal joke(which warranties the name of my blog) i am always reflecting over something but scarcely reflecting it back.
the major thing is the realization that the human aspect of life is far more complicated that the intellectual aspect.well.i am not surprised and am sure nor are you...i had long ago given up trying to make sense of "EMOTION"al issues which are an integral part of human existence.
but it still came as a shock,when ,fresh from a study session which had left me drained completely,i was subject to a string of events,which left me wanting to go back running to hide behind the secure predictability of facts.here,let me interject,this by stating that though what i study is morbid,and i feel intensely for certain issues,in some sense,i am just looking at the stability and predictability of intellectual activity when i say i prefer it.(not that intelligence comes easy to me...:P)
emotions were never my stronghold..and if i am honest with myself,i prefer it that way.
i don't how how to put it across but i sometimes wonder if people realise that too much or too little of everything is harmful,so what if it is love,principles,dreams....that a little love less given is less toxic than a whole lot of it given in the twisted form of clipping the wings of dreams or served on the platter of principles.that when you are yourself confused about what you want,you have no right to impose it on your near and dear ones in the name of love.
i don't how how to put it across but i sometimes wonder if people realise that too much or too little of everything is harmful,so what if it is love,principles,dreams....that a little love less given is less toxic than a whole lot of it given in the twisted form of clipping the wings of dreams or served on the platter of principles.that when you are yourself confused about what you want,you have no right to impose it on your near and dear ones in the name of love.
we hardly realise that most of the time it leads to dreams shoved under the carpet,confusion breeding,unshed tears and wrecked beliefs.
i guess,that is why i prefer these so called intellectual activity of studying,at least it gives you whatever on the face straight,without disguising itself.
coming to the recommendation part,another part of my Christmas desk i forgot to mention is an Arthur Hailey novel-Strong Medicine.
it is my alternative therapy -that is alternate with studies.
i have to say,i could not have chosen a better book or a better time for it.what i study in clinical terms is put in easier terms weaved along with gripping storyline.let it be drug toxicity,hypersensitivity reactions or Alzheimer's.this is perfect for a layman..if he is interested in medicine and pharmacy.
not to mention the female lead ..who is the perfect blend of objectivism and feminity without coming across as inhuman.
i feel,i have been writing a lot of "brain"related issues nowadays...i have to admit,i am a "brain"freak myself. as in ,i am completely in love with this organ. i completely dread the diseases that rob people of brain power(read"Alzheimer's,Schizophrenia or any other form of dementia") more than any other disease.
i can forgive people who break my heart,i can survive heartaches.
it is with a firm conviction that i say,i cannot and would prefer not to survive anything which completely messes my brain and thinking capacity.(or whatever i call as "thinking capacity :P)
on this somber and reflective mood..i sign off......
9 comments:
OMG!!! anje ur taking that turn.....that turn on the road that leads u to toppersville.... just like every year....please take me with you this year.....pls plssss pretty pls!
ohh sam....i wish i was on that route....
and trust me..if that was d case....i wld have taken u along too....
:(
oh.. pretty table you got.. I dare u see my desk! :P
On my desk - Cleanliness is next godli.. er.. impossible! :P
Best of luck for ur studies ma'am.. :)
Errr..The mouse in the pic looks exactly like the one I got! But ur monitor seems a lot better than my 2003 dabba..
Ur writing is quite intense. More from the brain than from the heart..maybe that personifies U, who u actually are!
hi harish.....yea...we dint know each other back in school....blogger sure does help...hope u write more...
by d way...ur comment was a nice way to call someone "heartless"......
thank u.....
thank u ...arshat.....
a cluttered desk..is a sign of a genius...
or so they say.....
cluttered desk is a sign of some1 who needs to b reminded of wat a nutty genius u r... but more than the desk, its ur head thats cluttered.. n 98% of all urs blogs begin with u huffing puffing on ur way or back frm a lull, nap, or brain storming.. givin u a dusty escaped-from-a-snow-storm image ;).. which is exactly wat u desire anyway na hahaa
yes yes yes....4 once...u just hit intuitive genius..kk....
i love d dusty,dirty creep image...
ughghghg
uh.. cognitively text..
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