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Thursday, March 19, 2009

of reflections and recommendations.

i was sitting,looking at the clutter i call my study desk,right now it serves as the computer table too..or it is better to say..the computer table serves as my study desk nowadays...a lot of things compete for space in this small,rectangular space. along with the computer and its accessories..my notes lay in a heap on one side...howmuch ever i try to pile it...it has this inbuilt mechanism of spreading everywhere(like algal blooms in pond ecosystem)...my cell phone lies silent somewhere in that space..i have no idea why i keep it there..most of the time..i don't realise it is ringing....and the other half i ignore its ringing.....my CD collection and headphones also manage to squeeze in here...i need them...during my break....a water bottle..and a whole lot of hair clips of different designs add colour and give this desk a Christmas "desk"like appearance. though these clips are look like spiders and dinosaur claws..they still manage to look good on my desk....




back to me..sitting staring at everything..and trying to process something.....
i am in this reflective mood...though it is a personal joke(which warranties the name of my blog) i am always reflecting over something but scarcely reflecting it back.

the major thing is the realization that the human aspect of life is far more complicated that the intellectual aspect.well.i am not surprised and am sure nor are you...i had long ago given up trying to make sense of "EMOTION"al issues which are an integral part of human existence.
but it still came as a shock,when ,fresh from a study session which had left me drained completely,i was subject to a string of events,which left me wanting to go back running to hide behind the secure predictability of facts.here,let me interject,this by stating that though what i study is morbid,and i feel intensely for certain issues,in some sense,i am just looking at the stability and predictability of intellectual activity when i say i prefer it.(not that intelligence comes easy to me...:P)
emotions were never my stronghold..and if i am honest with myself,i prefer it that way.
i don't how how to put it across but i sometimes wonder if people realise that too much or too little of everything is harmful,so what if it is love,principles,dreams....that a little love less given is less toxic than a whole lot of it given in the twisted form of clipping the wings of dreams or served on the platter of principles.that when you are yourself confused about what you want,you have no right to impose it on your near and dear ones in the name of love.
we hardly realise that most of the time it leads to dreams shoved under the carpet,confusion breeding,unshed tears and wrecked beliefs.
i guess,that is why i prefer these so called intellectual activity of studying,at least it gives you whatever on the face straight,without disguising itself.

coming to the recommendation part,another part of my Christmas desk i forgot to mention is an Arthur Hailey novel-Strong Medicine.
it is my alternative therapy -that is alternate with studies.
i have to say,i could not have chosen a better book or a better time for it.what i study in clinical terms is put in easier terms weaved along with gripping storyline.let it be drug toxicity,hypersensitivity reactions or Alzheimer's.this is perfect for a layman..if he is interested in medicine and pharmacy.
not to mention the female lead ..who is the perfect blend of objectivism and feminity without coming across as inhuman.


i feel,i have been writing a lot of "brain"related issues nowadays...i have to admit,i am a "brain"freak myself. as in ,i am completely in love with this organ. i completely dread the diseases that rob people of brain power(read"Alzheimer's,Schizophrenia or any other form of dementia") more than any other disease.
on a personal level,i love my brain.
i can forgive people who break my heart,i can survive heartaches.
it is with a firm conviction that i say,i cannot and would prefer not to survive anything which completely messes my brain and thinking capacity.(or whatever i call as "thinking capacity :P)

on this somber and reflective mood..i sign off......

9 comments:

sam said...

OMG!!! anje ur taking that turn.....that turn on the road that leads u to toppersville.... just like every year....please take me with you this year.....pls plssss pretty pls!

iceprincess said...

ohh sam....i wish i was on that route....
and trust me..if that was d case....i wld have taken u along too....
:(

arshat.chaudhary said...

oh.. pretty table you got.. I dare u see my desk! :P
On my desk - Cleanliness is next godli.. er.. impossible! :P
Best of luck for ur studies ma'am.. :)

Harish said...

Errr..The mouse in the pic looks exactly like the one I got! But ur monitor seems a lot better than my 2003 dabba..

Ur writing is quite intense. More from the brain than from the heart..maybe that personifies U, who u actually are!

iceprincess said...

hi harish.....yea...we dint know each other back in school....blogger sure does help...hope u write more...
by d way...ur comment was a nice way to call someone "heartless"......
thank u.....

iceprincess said...

thank u ...arshat.....
a cluttered desk..is a sign of a genius...
or so they say.....

kk said...

cluttered desk is a sign of some1 who needs to b reminded of wat a nutty genius u r... but more than the desk, its ur head thats cluttered.. n 98% of all urs blogs begin with u huffing puffing on ur way or back frm a lull, nap, or brain storming.. givin u a dusty escaped-from-a-snow-storm image ;).. which is exactly wat u desire anyway na hahaa

iceprincess said...

yes yes yes....4 once...u just hit intuitive genius..kk....
i love d dusty,dirty creep image...
ughghghg

Anonymous said...

uh.. cognitively text..